As of Tuesday around 1 pm my attempt at dating someone new failed. A friend of mine once warned me about those whirlwind romances and how they can end as quickly as they start. Sadly, I feel this guy is a great guy in many ways and how he chose to end things was very disappointing. I knew the end was inevitable because he just didn’t fit into my world. There is something to be said for taking time to heal and learn to be on your own after a divorce or breakup. I realized I wasn’t ready in some ways, but he was even less ready and in denial of that fact. The jealousy and insecurity on his part often came out in ugly random texts when we were apart, but then things were fantastic when we were together. The red flags were there early on but I chose to set them aside and wait to see if there would be a pattern or if it was just the normal navigation of dating someone new.
Sometimes we get side-tracked from our goals and ignore boundaries when we find a person that is so close to what we want. Basically, I allowed myself to be side-tracked and make excuses for him. I was allowing many things that I knew were not okay with me because the pros were outweighing the cons. However, the cycle was continuing with the pattern of negative remarks being made, me getting upset, him apologizing and giving me all the excuses of stress, not feeling well, and being insecure from people who had done him wrong in the past. None of these things are my fault and I no longer wanted to be the person he chose to take it out on. After a couple of months of seeing this cycle I knew it was not just his current situation but who he is as a person. So when I finally pointed out the pattern he broke up with me…through text. Sadly, his response was to just disappear and not even attempt to discuss the possibility of growth or change.
Since I have not reached out after his disappearing act I may never know exactly why he chose to just cut off communication instead of trying to talk it out. I will choose to be positive and hope that he realized he needed to learn to be alone a bit longer and work on himself before entering into a relationship. I guess his perspective no longer matters at this point. It is up to me to decide how I feel about the situation and how I plan to move forward. When someone drops communication that easily after such a short amount of time I conclude that I was never as important as they said I was. This realization can sting a little until you realize that you just dodged a major bullet. Looking back over the last two months I really have no regrets. I enjoyed getting to know him and enjoyed the time we spent together. I feel sad that we could not have parted in a nicer way but his cold exit speaks more to the type of person he is and has nothing to do with me.
It was a good start with the potential for so many things to come but as I have learned, you can’t fall in love with just potential, you have to fall for the person as they are. I think maybe I was still learning that lesson in this experience. I think it is important to learn something from each experience and in the process become more clear on what you really want in a relationship and out of life in general. I think the last two months definitely helped me do both. Looking to the future and still keeping my eye on the prize! Stay positive my friends!
I highly recommend the book pictured in this post if you are navigating the dating world! It gives great insight and forces you to be honest with yourself!
With love, health, and happiness,
Stacy
Life Unlimited 