Giving Without Expectation

I just returned from a wonderful and very relaxing week in Panama City Beach.  The next morning I decided to head to the store to restock my refrigerator  before my daughter returned home.  I arrived in the parking lot of the grocery store and as I got out of my car I heard this yowling and realized there was a cat inside my car.  After a couple of people in the parking lot looked under my hood with me, without any luck, I decided to drive across the street to the closest vets office.  When I arrived the office was not open yet but a man waiting with his dog offered to help me.  He was able to retrieve a small but very wild kitten from inside the bumper of my little Honda Civic.  I proceeded to have the kitten checked out by the vet, given flea meds and boxed up to be taken home with me.  I already have a happy cat and dog at home so I admit I was bit hesitant to mess up the perfect balance of my household by adding a wild kitten.

My daughter came home early from her Dads to see me and help with the new kitten.  Our goal was to get it tamed down enough to take her to my regular vet for a shots and other tests.  We left the kitten in the guest bathroom with food, water, and a small crate to sleep in and by the next day she was nervously letting us hold and pet her.  So we left for the day to go to church and then to a gathering with friends.  We arrived home later that evening to hear the kitten crying non-stop and in a panic.  My daughter ran inside the bathroom to see the kitten had tried to climb our cabinets in the bathroom and caught its paw in the hinges and was just hanging there! We had no idea for how long!  We helped the kitten down, added ice to her paw and I decided to take her to the vet the next morning instead of waiting until her regularly scheduled appointment.

Might I mention, when the kitten was removed from the car the seal underneath my fender was not snapped in completely and on the way to church the next morning the seal got caught by the wind and popped out, rubbing on the road and tire and it tore it up pretty bad.  I had to make a quick stop at an automotive center where they graciously zip-tied the bottom of my car up for free and sent me on my way.  So needless to say, by the time I took this kitten to the vet the next morning I was feeling a bit frustrated by all the trouble this little kitten had caused me already.  Sadly, the kitten seemed to have severe nerve damage to her front paw from getting hung up in the cabinet and at this point we are just waiting it out to see if the leg will have to be removed.  We have one week to see if the leg regains feeling and we are hoping she will be able to walk on it normally.  Right now she seems to just drag it around, limping, but does not seem to be in pain.  Between the caring for the kitten, my car, and the vet bill, I found myself wondering what the universe was trying to teach me in all of this.

There was a moment, when my car tore up on the way to church, I said to my daughter, why is the universe punishing for being a good person?  Shouldn’t I be finding a $100 bill on the sidewalk instead?  After I asked those questions I started thinking about karma and expectations.  When we do something good for another person, or creature of God,we should do it out of the kindness of our hearts, without expectation of anything in return.  This comes back to my previous post about unconditional love.  So I took a step back from the situation and asked myself, what is the wise thing to do in this situation and what is the best lesson to learn?

I debated on if I should keep the kitten and I have decided that I will do my best to give this kitten the best life possible because she has obviously been through enough already. My daughter and I decided to name the cute little grey and white kitten Lavender.  We kept her swaddled in a blanket when we first held her because she was so wild, but I was able to get a picture of her sweet face.


When we witness someone or something that needs help we should act out of love without expectation.  If we give money to a person and they do not spend it wisely, then that is on their heart and not ours.  We still must act from a place of love and not judgement.  Everyone is here to learn and grow and help the world become a better place….one kitten at a time.

Yours with love, health and happiness


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